Life is filled with all these things; death, taxes and if you are lucky, love. I have been in love 3 times in my life. Once was first love. You never really get over that. One was one-sided love. It is clear to me now that i loved him and he may not have known what that entailed. This time it is new love. It is fast and easy and strange. It took me 6 months with the first guy to say I love you, 3 with the second, and this time... you can guess. I don't know if this is real, but it feels real, I want it to be real, and its real on my end. I have a guy who is everything I could want except he isn't Christian. And its seems that I have been down this road before. but this time... this time I don't want that to matter. I don't care that we may be rushing things, and I feel oddly emotional. Probably because a resident died at my work this morning, my stepmom's dad is dying in the hospital again, and my new love, who i just barely said that I loved THIS MORNING went off to san francisco without telling me today. Road trip with the best friend. oh well... I should be happy I have a great job, a wonderful family, money (almost) in the bank and a great boyfriend (who has never had a gf before and i was his first kiss 2 years ago!). Why do i feel this way?...hopefully NOT hormones...

Kiss Kiss